Cook it up just to numb the pain
Pull the belt in a search to find my last vein
Like a felon in for life I�m wasting away
It�s the only thing in life that keeps my mind sane
But was it worth the consequences?
It numbs the hurt, it numbs the pain
Cause in the end I lost a friend who died in vain
I could never get enough to heal the pain
It all went wrong, he was left defenseless
He should not have died, it should be me
But now I see that if I believed in something
We�d be alive, but now we�re nothing
But it made me feel
It set me free
It cloaked the pain that tortured me
It made me blind I couldn�t see
The only one to blame was me
It was my selfish lies that caused the end of his life
And now he�s gone and so are we
We�re all just fading memories
Destined to fail
Sink back as the drugs take way
Through my veins I feel my life begin to fade
What�s done is done and it ain�t ever gonna change
It�s the only thing in life that keeps me sane
My skin turns pale as the drugs destroy my soul within
It�s poison, complete, bittersweet, defeat I�ll never win
I�ll give in. Let go of the life I wish I never began
This man is sick so I ask myself, well what if I believed in something
We�d be alive, but now we�re nothing
But it made me feel
It set me free
It cloaked the pain that tortured me
It made me blind I couldn�t see
The only one to blame was me
It was my selfish lies that caused the end of his life
And now he�s gone and so are we
We�re all just fading memories
Destined to fail
Destined to fail
I�m falling faster
Gaining speed to a fate I can�t believe
I�m a disaster
A one-way ticket to hell made just for me
I�m sorry mother
I�m not the man that you thought that I would be
Now it�s all over
Hell�s awaiting me
